So I showed up at this exercise place for women this morning. I was taught how to eat, what to eat, how much to eat, how many calories. All the women were very kind and supportive of each other, it was so nice to see and to feel comfortable and like I could be friends with people I just met. Feeling great, feeling good, fast forward to the workout. I think the trainer was trying to kill me. No really. She made me run. RUN!!!!!! I don’t run, I can’t run, this is the dialog that plays in my head when I think of running. It was the dialog in my head this morning with a few choice curse words I won’t share here. I ran and lifted weights, and ran some more, and squats and lunges and then it happened, I puked. REALLY????? I am paying for this????? I felt like I was on The Biggest Loser.
I can say that I did the best I could after being thrown in the fire, I ran a little, I couldn’t run like the other ladies there. I couldn’t do as many jumping jacks as them, but I tried and they cheered me on. It was the first time in my life I felt like I had a breakthrough in my health, the first time I felt good about myself, like wow I just did that?????? I FREAKING RAN!!!!!! ME! I RAN! It wasn’t like a 5k or anything in fact it was probably less than 1/2 a mile but I did it.
Then the realization of how incredibly out of shape I am, set in. But I guess I have to start somewhere right? I chose to throw myself into the fire, but hey I am an all or nothing type of gal. This class is every Saturday for a month. Maybe I will get better and will sign up again who knows. I am on a mission to go out of my comfort zone and this certainly did it.
The weekend just seemed to slip away from me there. We spent it doing absolutely nothing, which we really needed, sometimes you just need to sit back and relax for a couple of days. I am trying to eat better. I am loving this oatmeal with Cranberries, coconut and pecans.
I am trying for the umpteenth time to get in shape!! I started T25, then stopped, now I am back on track!! I am sure it works just have to get back my sticktoittiveness!
So it begins again, I am starting over for the umpteenth time. It’s not rocket science, eat less, move more. I get it, really I do. But something happens in between the stress and the happenings of everyday life, I take bites, bites that add up all day long, bites that I do not even realize I have taken. I finish things on my daughter’s plate because it would be wasteful to throw it away. So here I am once again having to get back on the wagon. How is it that I have a Master’s Degree and I can’t figure out how to once and for all lose this weight for good? This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life and I have to do it, I must do it, I won’t be satisfied until I have kicked this weight loss things ass.
Do I do like the Biggest Loser and exercise for 6 hours or do I walk for 30 mins a day? Do I eat meat? Do I eat carbs? Do I only eat veggies? It is really all to much to process.
My goal, as silly as it sounds is to be able to run in the Princess Half Marathon in Disney by the time I am 40.
I just feel like I keep failing at this. I get so discouraged so easily. I am running out of options so I decided to just start with calorie counting, and I utilized the Lose It App, and I did my Walk Away the Pounds DVD. I wish someone could pay me to lose weight, because if I could treat it like a job I would totally do fabulous at it.
In other news my little miss who is almost 2, is now standing without holding onto anything, so it’s not long now until we will hear the pitter patter of those little feet, I hope. I hope everyone has had a great day. If anyone has any diet, exercise tips please let me know.
So weight loss Wednesday was rudely interrupted by Valentine’s Day, I couldn’t back down from the Godiva truffles, I just couldn’t do it. Although I did not gain any weight this week, I didn’t lose either sadly I stayed the same. Still haven’t found the umph to exercise, I have been running back and forth to doctors and specialists with my daughter and having to be home for her Early Intervention twice a week, and working with her to get her muscles stronger. I am just so tired all the time, by the time 9 pm rolls around I am ready for bed.
I know that if I did exercise a lot more I would have more energy and maybe I would not be so tired at night, I know people say I have to make time for myself, but how do I do that when there is so much that has to be done? Maybe next week I will have better weight loss news.
I love my son, he is the smartest most kind hearted little boy I know, and I am not just saying that because I am his mother. He has a Math Test today and I made him a study guide so that we could review it together. He hugged me and said “Thanks for making this for me mom, I am going to do good on my test thanks to you.”
Then while doing my exercise yesterday he said “what are you doing mom?” and I told him that I was trying to lose weight to feel and look better. He said “don’t do that mom you are beautiful just the way you are now.” Man I love that kid. So nice segway into Weightloss Wednesday, huh? It hasn’t been going so well, PMS + TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT= NOT SO GOOD RESULTS. So I am hoping to get back into the swing of things today, making better choices and pushing myself a little harder in the exercise department. Hope everyone else who is also on this journey is doing well, Happy Healthy Wednesday everyone.
Well this weight loss thing is going okay. I am down about 7 lbs with a LONG way to go, but I am trying to take my one day at a time theory I use with my daughter and apply it to my weight loss. I didn’t gain all this weight overnight so it is not going to be gone overnight, it is going to take time and if it’s half a pound or 5 pounds at least it’s a loss.
I have been slacking in the exercise department, I am just so tired. I know that if I committed to doing it everyday maybe I wouldn’t be so tired. I just have to commit to myself that I will do at least 30 minutes a day.
I am a bit intimidated by the gym, I take the ZUMBA calsses and that’s about it. The equipment, all the people who look like athletes intimidate me, I don’t even know where to start with the weight lifting equipment, they have a lot of other classes there but I haven’t tried them yet. Well I am trying, I am doing Weight Watchers online, I may sign up for the meetings as well for the extra support. We shall see what happens, but good news is I no longer have the desire to eat crap because of how awful it makes me feel. Hopefully by this time next month I am down another 10 lbs. Wish me luck!!!
Dieting and exercise can be daunting, it can seem like such a chore especially when you have a lot to lose. I was reading this article this morning, that said “If the caveman didn’t eat it you shouldn’t eat it.” So we should be eating, fruit, vegetables, meat and nuts basically, nothing packaged, nothing in a can, only pure, fresh ingredients and I think it is true, whenever I eat this way I feel fabulous, try it I bet you will feel great. But it is so easy to pop something in the microwave, so easy to grab a snack that is packaged, with life, responsibilities, kids, cooking, cleaning time is not something I have a lot of.
So my tip for this week is to try and eat clean for just a week. I am going to buy myself and insulated lunch box and prepare all my snacks and meals for next week. Wish me luck. Oh and as for exercise, do something that is FUN or you will never stick to it. I havefound myself loving ZUMBA it is great exercise and lots of fun.
In other news, my daughter is starting her physical therapy and she is well on her way to catching up to all her little baby friends. She is my light, she keeps me focused, she keeps me striving for better, she keeps my outlook on life clear, she’s is my inspiration. Her brother just adores her and is such a great kid, I asked him if he wanted to share a birthday party with Leah this summer and he said “Mom I don’t need a big party, my sister has been through a lot she deserves to have her own party.” I just love that kid. (he will definitely be having his own birthday party, just for making my heart melt) Have to start the planning, now I have 2 parties to plan. Happy Tuesday everyone.
Let me start this blog by saying I have been “chubby,” “heavy,” since I was 5 years old, I have never known what it is like to be thin, well there was this time in college when I got thin, but I didn’t see it, I still saw that chubby face staring back at me in the mirror. Now that I look at pictures of myself during that time, I looked great, I felt great, I remember how wonderful I felt then. I just wish I would have noticed, would have appreciated how great I looked and how wonderful I felt at the time.
Fast forward to now and 2 pregnancies later, I am ready to get serious about losing this weight once and for all. I am tired of being the fat mom, I was teased terribly because of my weight as a child, I am convinced it is why I became so shy and sheltered, never letting anybody in.
I want to be outgoing, happy and healthy. I have started and failed a dozen diets, you name them I have tried them, from Slim Fast to Jenny Craig and everything in between. It’s sort of embarrassing for me to write about this, but I guess it can’t hurt, there are lots of people who are in my shoes right? Anyway so what makes it different now, what am I going to do to change my physical being?
Well I have started back at the gym slowly but surely, taking ZUMBA classes which I love. Let me state that I do no have any kind of rhythm, so these classes are a bit challenging for me, but I try and I just keep moving. I also ordered myself some Leslie Sansone’s Walk Away the Pounds videos, it’s an in home walking system since I can’t get out much. So all that with eating to the Weight Watchers Points System will help me shed this weight for good. I have lots of support from my husband who is also trying to lose some weight, my son and daughter both like to watch and talk to me while I am exercising, so every little bit helps. I will use Wednesdays to write about my weight loss challenges and hope you will be inspired and maybe learn a thing or two along with me.
Okay so at 34 years of age I have decided that it is time to get my butt in shape. I am all ready, I’ve got the pants, the tshirt, the sneakers, the music, the spinning bike and the gym membership. I got this, I can do this, I can do anything, I watched my infant daughter go through heart surgery I can do ANYTHING. Fast foward to my morning attempt at the spinning bike, let me preface this by saying that 1 year ago I was able to get through a 1 hour spinning class. Now, well that is a whole other miserable story, I am ridiculously out of shape, I was barely able to do 10 minutes. Uggggh I am so depressed. I mean I know that this is the first step right? I just have to do it. So now I have a whole gym schedule, exercise at home plan and a menu. So hopefully I can also use this blog not only to write about my wonderful family but to also hold myself accountable to my health plan, wish me luck.