We got this cute little play kitchen from Ikea for our daughter for Christmas. Let me tell you, it was the best purchase ever. She loves it.
Through social media I have been able to get back in touch with some of my students. I taught them when they were 10 years old and they are now adults. I was so happy to get in touch with a few of them and I am so proud of all they are aspiring to be in their lives, it is just wonderful. After writing back and forth with a couple of my former students I realized how much I miss that time in my life. I was 21 when I started teaching and I taught until I was 28 and had my son. I was a good teacher. I loved my job and it showed. Even though I loved it then, I am not sure there is room in my life now for teaching. Things are different in the world of education now with common core and I am not sure if I could teach that way. I immersed myself in my job, my job was my life. Now things are different, now I have an 8 year old and a 2 year old with Down Syndrome so I couldn’t do a job like that anymore and give my all to it.
Little Miss is doing really well, standing and trying to cruise along the side of the couch with a little extra help. She is saying baby, hi pa, and me. She is also signing more, which is very exciting, she has been eating so much better lately as well, I couldn’t be happier with how well she is doing. She also got her first pair of sneakers because she has to practice her standing and walking in shoes for her physical therapy.
My little guy continues to make so proud as well, he is doing so wonderful in school. He has been building one of the huge Lego sets he got for Christmas, he amazes me everyday how he able to put those things together in no time at all. I so cannot do that, my brain repels legos I think. He is amazing, he is 7 and is able to build the sets that say ages 10-14. AMAZING!!!! This is the one he is currently working on 1368 pieces.
Did I mention how he amazes me, all by himself, noone helped him at all, he is Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!
In our little place in this world things are good, my almost 17 month old started standing and signing for “more” and “eat”. I am so excited and so happy that she understands me and I now know what she wants, as for her speech, she says “Ma Ma” “Da” “Pa” “Baby” and “Apple” oh and she also says “mmmm” when you say, do you want to eat, do you want lunch? So cute. Anyway just thought I would update how things are going, we are painting my son’s bedroom today, already went to our Weight Watchers meeting and we are planning to have some early birthday celebrations of some sort today since my birthday is quickly approaching next week. Happy Weekend everybody!!
Everytime I look at her I cannot believe how far she has come, from a fragile little thing to a strong, happy baby. She is trying so hard to crawl, she can get up on her hands and knees but doesn’t quite know what to do next. She is getting a tooth on the bottom, so exciting things are happening and we couldn’t be more thrilled.
My son is doing just terrific, he is doing so great in school we couldn’t be more proud of him. He received an award for Tolerance last week and did super on his report card. So that is just a little update, I am going to try to get back into regular blogging in the next week or so, things have just been very busy lately, but I am going to make an effort to work on the blog every night. So have a wonderful Wednesday everyone!!!!
My son was born in 2005, I had just finished teaching 5th grade that June, I had just earned my Master’s degree and I was having my first baby. It was a wonderful pregnancy once I finished the first trimester, I have never felt better. His name was supposed to be Joshua or Andrew, but as they wheeled me into the operating room, a song by Elton John was playing, and the rest as they say was history.
I was new at this motherhood thing and there were other people in my life that weren’t making this new transition any easier. I could handle a classrooom full of 20 fifth graders no problem, but this little tiny baby, nothing I did ever seemed to be right. He cried a lot and nothing I did made it any better.
In those begining mommy years, it was hard for me, hard to give up the career that I had chosen, that I had loved so dear, that had become a part of me. I had spent the last 4 years working and going to grad school, I left the house at 6 am and didn’t get home until 10 pm sometimes. I missed it, I missed the time I had to myself, somehow I was slowly losing myself and becoming something I didn’t know how to be.
As he became a toddler, and became mobile he became a lot happier, we were on a journey together, trying to figure eachother out and I think we definitely succeeded. Since the moment he was born he has been cute, clever, curious and my little buddy. He taught me so much that first year of his life, he taught me how to be the best mom I can be, he taught me to be myself, he taught me to laugh and to have fun.
I have grown into this mommy role quite nicely and I wouldn’t trade it for the world, not one second, jobs, careers they come and go but my kids will only be this little just once, I had them and it is my job to raise them, so to those people that are constantly asking me when I am going back to work, or do I think I will ever go back to teaching, the answers are I am not sure and probably not, I need to be with my kids. To those moms that have to work and be a mommy, I admire you and honestly don’t know how you do it. I think that we all have guilt and people tend to make us feel guilty, stay at home moms feel guilty because they are not making money and working moms feel guilty that they are not there with their kids. You can’t win. Honestly I am fine about my decision to stay home and so is my husband and that is all that really matters. I love my children and I cherish all the time I am able to spend with them and I thank my husband for how hard he works to enable me to do so.
I can see him growing inch by inch right before my eyes. His little voice is even changing, where did the time go, seriously where the hell did it go? He was a baby in my arms like 5 minutes ago, I can still smell him, feel his warm baby breath on my cheek. Now that little baby will be 7 in a few short months. 7 when did I become the mother of a 7 year old.
He is more like 6 going on 30, he is my little professor as I like to call him. So matter of fact, such a rule stickler, he is, it’s so cute. It will be 7:30 in the morning and and he has to leave for school at 7:35 and he will say, “Mom please tell me I am not going to be late for school.” He is stubborn, very stubborn, has to get the last word in always, can’t imagine where he gets that from.
He is gentle, kind and caring when he wants to be, one day when we were sitting in the living room and he says, “Mom I want you to know something, when I get bigger I am going to take care of Leah, she can live in my house and I will always protect her.” I think I cried like a baby that day, he is wise beyond his years. He knows that his sister has Down Syndrome and that she had heart surgery but you never really know to what extent they really understand, I think he gets it more than I thought he did, I don’t give him enough credit sometimes.
He loves video games, not just playing them but creating levels and all of that. I told him maybe he should go to school for that when he gets older and he in a very matter of fact way told me “Seriously mom? I am going to be an inventor. I am going to invent a robot that will take care of Leah if I am away on business” That kid cracks me up.
He is my little man and I admire everything about him, his ability to be silly at a moment’s notice, his serious nature, his ability to focus, his zest for things. I call him Buddy, because he is my little Buddy.
So my little guy is trying his hardest to find an extra-curricular activity that he will enjoy. Yesterday we tested out karate, in the car he said to me, mom I am not sure that karate is for me, I didn’t really have too much fun. So onto the next thing, in search of swimming lessons that do not break the bang because as he put it, “I think swimming is my thing mom.” Okay if you say so, he was so cute in karate and he did really well for his first try, do I make him do it anyway or just keep trying to find something that fits him. Hmmm. Little Miss is doing really well at her PT, getting stronger everyday.
Ma Ma Ma, Ba Ba Ba, Da Da Da. These are the sounds that we are trying to get our little girl to start saying. She does a whole lot of yelling lately and sometimes seems to utter those sounds, but I cannot be quite sure. As they tell me that we should be hearing more of those sounds from her I start to worry because we are not really hearing them often or at all for that matter. I keep telling myself that she will do it eventually, she will make those sounds when she is good and ready, but it is still hard waiting and hoping that she will do all the things that she is supposed to. I do know this the day I hear her call Mommy or Daddy will be the most wonderful day and I can’t wait for it.In other news I have discovered that my son is quite the math whiz, he keeps bringing home fabulous grades and I couldn’t be more proud of him.
I did something that I can’t even believe I haven’t done yet. I put my ear on Leah’s chest and listened to the sweet thump, thump of her heart, her beating heart, keeping her body full of happieness and life. I realized in that moment that nothing else matters, not the negativity that seems to be surrounding me lately, not the people who choose to be unhappy, not the nonsense, nothing else but the happieness and the life that God has given my 2 beautiful children. So my tip for this Tuesday is don’t let other people’s nonsense ruin your happieness. Love your children, breathe them in, listen to the beat of their heart, realize how lucky you are that God chose you to be their parent.